Why ?

I'm sick of this . . there too much shit for me to worry about. Today I woke up, ate, and minded my business. Right before Marvin left for work, he spoke of the "D" word . . . my heart almost stopped. Since I was little, I feared the doctors office. Not because of the needles or an irritant, yet nostalgic scent, but for weigh-ins and thorough body checks. I always knew Coussoy and Paulette would talk shit about what the doctor would say, acting as if they fucking cared. .

In addition, Janell called, awakening my sleep, only to drop a bomb on me. I wont freely put my dear friends business here, but it was monumentally dramatic. However, I will say that as I was on the phone, he had the audacity, to march his self into my room, and cause a scene. I myself am done with him, and whatever the fuck he wants to do, I'm ready.

Enough said, Goodnight.                                                               

 - Marc  SoFuckingDone  Mentor

Back to the Start

Well hello there .. It has been a while, hasn't it? It’s been six days, but it's felt like months, in which case I hadn't even started you yet.

But how are you? Have you been feeling lonely? I have. I miss the people I love. I miss my older brother, the one who to me, was like a father. My best friend. I miss speaking to him every day .. It puts pressure in my eyes but I won’t allow a tear. I miss Nellie. i miss talking to her like we did at our prime. Devantey .. We barely talk at all. We have broken conversations in school, and no contact out of school.

With Deanna, my twin, things are great ♥. We don't talk every day, but when we do, it revitalizes my will to live. Charly and I, we're doing great as well. Not a day goes by that we don't speak. I love him. He’s like my older brother. Brian and I .. Well, we're getting tight again, this time the right way. No arguments and no petty bullshit. I ignore the reasons to get mad, because I know without him how I would be.

Janell, Gregory, Richmond, and I were on ooVoo yesterday.. haha, man I missed them all ♥.

But, it was nice talking friend, I love you ♥.       - Marc ♥

PICTURE this ♥

So . . my artistic touch is back! I feel a masterpiece or two coming . . maybe three. So excited! I'll post pictures and everything .. but for now, Create, Create, Create!

cables building a bridge across my mind . .

Miss Me ?

Hey there . . I know, I know, I know, YES, it has been a while .. but I'm here, right? To be honest, nothing tragic or cataclysmic has happened recently, I'm just too lazy to write. Shame, isn't it? I used to take pride in writing, I would try to write every night. I would write poems, song, even raps . . all to be admired by who I would share them with. But now . . I simply just don't care for it. My friend Charly who I'm sure you'll be hearing more about is an amazing writer .. he's like a mentor to me i suppose. He encourages my writing, he thinks I shouldn't stop. . I don't know though, I guess we'll just see.
But there have been some developments . . For starters, I still don't talk to "them" (that's the plan) . . but just moments ago, "she" was crying. I suspect its because i cut her off, but I'm not sure. but its whatever, because i also don't care. the other one . . well, he's still annoying. he complains and complains on end, and tries to look helpful, but as everyone knows, its all about the brownie points.

but I'll be going now . . the crying is back, and I'm expecting a scene. - Adios

Hey Again !

Hi friend! Told you I would be back! I remember, but still .. I hesitated to write a post, jeez I can be lazy. But I'm tired, and it was a good day, so there isn't much to say. Goodnight!

- Marc

First Entry . . Here we Go ..

Hello there, friend. Prior to writing this, I was thinking of what to call you, but for now, friend will be just fine.

     Today, the 27th of November was actually a good day. The only troubles I faced were within me. I had been pondering whether or not to start this blog, after all what the point is? Sure, i can write everything i want, freely, but in this day and age, i can just as well say it. Well I’ll tell you why i started this blog! i started this blog to manifest the idea that your best friend is yourself. The first serious thought of writing my feelings down hit me on Thanksgiving Day.

     As i sat alone in my room while my "family" was together, I thought to myself how i wanted to write an autobiography. Obviously, that didn’t happen, but this is just as good. But we'll talk later friend, I’m going to try to post something, and talk to you every day. I know I probably won’t, and i don’t dedicate myself to almost anything .. but for you my friend, I’ll try. Hopefully, my last entry will be on this same day next year! But goodnight friend, for sure, we'll speak tomorrow.

 - Signed,

      

        Marc Mentor
   a friend, in search of the somatic truth